No Longer Yours

No Longer Yours

You entered my life
so seamlessly
and weaved a web
around an oblivious me.

You said 'hi, baby,'
with that Hollywood smile
and kissed my hand --
I felt light for miles.

Late nights we whispered
about the future,
of night kisses, warm hugs
and innocent laughter.

I thought we'd be
Sweethearts forever --
A force that was pure
A love that couldn't be severed.

But

It was Friday night
And we were kissing and cuddling
Your hands trailed down,
then I said no.

Then you lifted up my shirt--
 I said no.
You unbuttoned my pants
I said no.
You ripped off my panties
 I said no.
You wrung my wrists,

And broke me.

It burned, baby, it burned.
I screamed NO NO and NO.

No.

Did my screaming turn you on?
Did I feel good to you?
Did you like the scent of the tears
that streamed down my face?

After, the door slammed.
I lay in my bed
despair and hurt
swimming through my head.

I let myself get carried away
in your illusion.
And in that night
I received no reprieve.

My innocence gone
and so my soul,
I was broken,
Beaten, hurt and losing control.

I thought back
to the day we were 'us'
That moment my eyes met yours
I knew I was yours.

But being yours shouldn't mean
I can't be me.
So don't mind me:
I'm setting myself free.

It wasn't my fault,
Despite what you say.
You were the one who did it;
I didn't choose to throw myself away.

When they took you away,
To that hellhole,
Where you'll surely stay,
I lit up your things,

and I said:

"Burn, baby, burn."

From the ashes rose a
Deliciously warm,
Deliriously perfect,
New sense of
Hope.

Baby, you had my heart,
Trapped in your grasp.
Watch yourself, boy -
I'm taking it back.